...meticulously waiting...

New blog UP!

2009-02-02T21:55:00.001+08:00

Ok people, I have officially moved!

http://fitrina-inamorata.blogspot.com/

See you there!!!=)

dammit

2009-02-02T16:14:00.001+08:00

I CANNOT THINK OF A BLOG ADDRESS.

am going for a run, see can think or not.
chicken nene.
ARGH.

Jae hee=) 607=last

2009-01-31T20:14:00.004+08:00

607th post.
Last ever post on this blog.
I am moving to another address.

We did this in Sec 4 out of sheer childishness.
We did this again now, not for mere sophomoric behaviour, but for matured and reasoned thoughts.

I did not do it out of spite or anger, or whatever crap you think the reason is.
The reason is simple.
For the better not for the worse.

It's a decision made to better life, and not to make it difficult.
Hurt and despair will overwhelm one's thoughts in the beginning, but time will devour those and bless you with more maturity.
It's a life lesson that is learnt the hard way.

We have similar goals and preferences, but those are minute details when it comes to minor differences in ideologies. Therefore, ending it off now is a bitter but correct choice.

I hope you don't feel scorned about it. Anger is a must in this kind of situation, but I believe you will understand the true objective for you are someone I depended on for a long time, and you have the ability to understand the situation given time, unlike other cuckoos out there.

I admit some may deem this as a wrong decision and foolish decision, but if they possess some sort of realistic thinking, it will be understood.
I don't mind being the villain for now on.
It is better to be misunderstood by others than by yourself. If I stick to my own ideals and goals, I don't see why I should falter when they give corny and cheapo remarks.

Steph told me something that made me kind of assured of my choice. She said that I was not the petty type to end relations unless the matter got really serious. I thought I was at first, but her statement made me rethink. And I think she is right.

It definitely was not a spur of foolish action.
It was something done out of meticulous thought.
I owe this matter only to her and to no one else.
Only she is entitled to make comments, others shall be deemed as weirdos.

On another note, I do think I have the flair for literature. I want to do English Language also for university. If that is possible, seeing how badly I did my General Paper.

This post is carefully sculpted into life after 2 sessions of running, one around the estate and one at home, for 1 hour and 45 minutes. Running is good for relaxation.

And very unfortunate for me, I have caught the stomach virus yet again. I now have 6 packets of medicine to consume. Some I will throw down the toilet, after checking they contain stuff to make you gain weight. I am now living on oatmeal porridge and some hideous stuff my ahma bought from Chinatown. blergh.

Hope I will be walking properly by Monday. Need to company Jeremy's brother to AJC. =)
Talk cock session with Steph on Tuesday. I need to talk to her!
Lecky, ice cream session when?
I miss Nigel and Weihao and Junxiang and Chingwan and Chongshuo.

OK last post of this blog done.
See you guys in my next address, which for now I haven't thought of yet. haha.
Shall brainstorm for weird addresses. haha.
tata.

I LOVE JAEHEE=)

jaehee!! self responsibility. hmm

2009-01-31T15:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's ranting was rubbish.
Am not going to buy another pair of shoes since I have so many already.
I can always wait for Great Singapore Sale right?
haha.

Instead, we shall use Loh's Topman member card and get 65% off Topshop/Topman/Dorothy Perkins!=)
Monday will be a trip to town! Not Anchorpoint.
HOORAY!=)

Stupid internet giving me problems.
Cannot watch finish the drama.
Chicken nene.

jaehee!!=) more shoes!!=)

2009-01-30T22:56:00.002+08:00

Am going back to Anchorpoint on Monday.
No matter with company or not.
Everything can don't spend, but shoes can splurge!=)

For 13 bucks each, I can buy 3 pairs and still have change!! WOW.

Wait for pictures!! WOOHOO!!=)
Shall not update till then!! haha
I am such a spender.
Nevermind lar, I got moolahs!!

And I think I want to learn Korean.
Am going to do that soon.

Can survive without food.
Cannot survive without shoes.
That's my newest mantra.

omoni omoni omoni omoni.

Shall just makan instant food and lots of fruits everyday.
Can slim down, and buy nice shoes.
Heckcare to health now.
At least I have 3 apples and 2 oranges everyday.
=)
oh, oatmeal porridge is nice. I have it everyday. HAHA.

Ok.
I love JaeHee and SHOES!
Charles and Keith at Anchorpoint rocks my world!=)

JAE HEE!=)

2009-01-30T16:40:00.003+08:00

Just went to Queensway with 2 of the most handsome guys in the whole world, Jeremy and Lohloh. HAHA. I seem to be bribed. Anyway, I was searching for a pair of AA sneakers (Attract Attention sneakers, that is) and I saw damn alot. Agree with what Jeremy said, I cannot wear skater type of shoe, those VANS type of shoe lar, make my legs fat. haha.

Saw Jinghan also. haha.

Anyway, Charles and Keith at Anchorpoint is having serious sales. $12.90 onwards. Chicken. Nice heels le!! Very comfy some more, I am going back next week=)

This is the star ring Lohloh made while we were crapping at Railmall's Coffee Bean. LOL. Nice!

The very chio sneakers that I bought. WOWIE! 87 bucks, quite cheap considering the comfort factor.

It looks too big ar, but I haven't wear socks yet. ARGH SO CHIO. Imagine I wear black blouse, black skinnies, then this chioness. WOWIE=)

Since i am posting about shoes, shall post all the shoes i keep in my room. Lazy to take picture of those outside house one. LOL. This is a self-satisfaction post. HAHA.

Bought this pair before Japan trip. Mom bought a size too big for me lar, this is 40 le. =.= makes me look like Charlie Chaplin lor. But it's very warm ar. During Japan trip, my feet were the warmest part of the body, and I didn't wear socks at all. LOL. typical of me.

Bought in Japan for 90 bucks. If not folded, it's a mid-calf boot. I cannot wear this unfolded, because I have huge calves. Thanks to Gong-gong for this. =)

Ok, shoes galore!=) My wardrobe is half shoe lar. self-satisfactory self-satisfactory. I love to gloat and boast to myself. HAHA.

Jokes of the day:

Taken from Two Weeks Notice (Sandra Bullock and Hugh Grant)

Lucy Kelson: You are the most annoying person I have met in the whole planet!

George Wade: That's rubbish! Have you met everyone on the planet?

From lame king Loh Weijie

A: You got a hole in your socks.

B: (Looks frantically on socks) Where?!?!

A: The one you put your feet into.

B: =.=

jae hee jae hee jae hee jae hee

2009-01-30T00:02:00.001+08:00

I love Jae Hee.
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.

Sad he now in army. LOL.
3 dads and 1 mom is nice!

I love Jae Hee
=)

For very fervent readers of my blog, I am very very sorry to say that these few days, weeks, years, the posts shall all about Jae Hee. wahahahahahahahahhahahaha.

I love Jae Hee=)

JAE HEE!!!=)

2009-01-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

WENZHU I LOVE JAEHEE!!=)

Don't know why. Yesterday I dreamt of Mo Nu You Xi. LOL. Of course I dreamt of JaeHee also!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE JAEHEE!!

Seriously. Even though alot thinks he's not that hot, he IS ok. Not overpoweringly handsome. But still too hot to handle. =)

Am rewatching Sassy Girl, Chun Hyang just because he is in it. =) Channel U is going to show it soon too, after like 3 years. =_=

Had high fever.

But fever or not, i still love jaehee!! WOOHOO!!=)

peel

2009-01-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

Skin's peeling like crazy.
Life's boring like crazy.
Tummy's round like crazy.

Shoot me.

exciting escapade.

2009-01-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

This is what I do everyday. Stare into screen and watch. If got sad scene, cry. If got happy scene, cry. If got funny scene, laugh like mad. I have trained to be an actress. I can cry on call. ZAI BO! LOL. Finished goong for like the 6th time. Now restarting on MARS. Vic Zhou not very handsome with long hair. Boo. By the way, the orange thingy at the side is orange skin lar. I ate like 4 oranges today. LOL.

Tomorrow got reunion steamboat with 25 peeps! And Loh loh is back!=) Good! Can go drool at his house liao. HAHA.

And I have money again! I can go shopping again! HOORAY!!

headache

2009-01-25T19:16:00.005+08:00

My room after the extermination. You can't see the feeling in the picture lar. Really very nice now. HAHA. =)

Ah, the once messy cupboard has evolved!! The ants were on top by the way, infesting a box of Barbie dolls that we have thrown away.

And this is how I look cleaning my room. I wonder why my eyes one big one small. I think because i damn tired. Not a flattering picture. LOL.

Then Mela and Steph came over yesterday to have a sleepover. Seriously Central sucked like hell -_-" but the company was great! HAHA. Fun times! Have to repeat, bbq at steph's house next!!

Pictures from reunion dinner on Friday. Go to my Facebook for more pictures, but Facebook is having maintainance now, so I will upload at like 10 or 11pm. =)

I love Mervin now. HAHA. His shaved head is much nicer than his mushroom head.=)

We forgot about Grace and Shang in this picture. LOL. But I like this want!

More pictures check Facebook TOMORROW!=)

Am now rotting at home. I have no reunion dinner to attend. LOL.

=)

2009-01-25T14:46:00.001+08:00

I feel like I am the world's best daughter. HAHA.
Just spring-cleaned my room. Now it can compete with 5-star hotels lor.
But the fun part was exterminating ant nests. Love spraying them with Baygon!

Aiyah when my camera's all charged up, I will upload the nice pictures!
Sleepover was fun!
Steph introduced me to the world of white tattoos. Quite nice. haha.

And there's another weird stuff going on at Virginia Tech.
Some beheaded thingy.
GAH.

eh?

2009-01-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

tired.
hungry.
in need of booze.

photos from gathering will be uploaded on sunday.
currently i have a bigger problem to solve.
and if the other party still is that shameless, i have no choice but to wave goodbye.
tolerate till now, i think i damn zai liao.
whoosh.

where's the booze?
i gonna drink my way to sleep.

or maybe am going to put mask till i sleep.
i shall crash diet.
get fucking thin.
get fucking chio.
and i will have the last laugh.
i am so not thinking straight,

New shoe! again!=)

2009-01-22T21:18:00.004+08:00

I am a shoe addict!!!!!!!=) This pair bought from Ebay at a very reasonable price of 18 bucks. I think Charles&Keith shoes are worth the moolahs! Shall go to Anchorpoint soon to find some more. =) Lily let's go together! woohoo. But this pair makes me demure-looking. haha. pair it with jeans and I am good to go!!=)

The heels actually quite high. Pardon the weird blotches on my feet. Been exercising too much, sacrificing the skin around leg area. =/

----

2009-01-22T19:05:00.002+08:00

Decided to get another pair of shoes to cool myself down from intense anger the night before.
Got a very ncie and comfortable Charles and Keith wedges.
Kind of simple. but i like it=)

Lala.
should i wear it to dinner tomorrow?
argh, shall ask lily tomorrow when she comes.

fool

2009-01-21T19:31:00.003+08:00

That feeling's coming again.
stupid fucking shit.
and i think you are a bloody fucking gi na.

cheebye.
i am damn pissed with myself.
fuck shit.

ARGH.
when is this going to subside, like 40 years from now is it?????????????????
knnbccb,

WHY DOES THIS STUPID FUCKING SHIT ALWAYS HAPPENS WHEN I LEAST EXPECTS IT?
and have no one to blame but myself.
crap.
being a bitch has its downfall.
but this is a punishment.

lecky, now you need to treat me the ice cream, like for real.
cool me down or something..

ARGH. I AM FOREVER STUCK WITH THIS KIND OF FUCKING PROBLEM.
FOOL
FOOL\
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL
FOOL

that's what i am.

upcoming fatigue.

2009-01-20T21:59:00.004+08:00

WOOHOO, super thanks to Mr lecky for giving us the person to contact for the tickets!! Went to CSS with Huimin, Nigel and Bob. Quite nice actually, but abit disturbed by the level of ahbeng-ness and ahlian-ness that's overtaking Singapore. Kind of scary, especially when the whole school is like that. Come out then smoke IN UNIFORM?? I don't mind the smoking, I mind the smoking in uniform part. -_-"

My facebook got more pictures. haha. So go there see all the Pornsak photos. LOL.

Been shopping like crazy these 2 days, especially after gong gong gave me moolahs to spend. HAHA. =) Stocked up on masks! And since my skin is in a terrible condition now, I should use acne fighting cleanser. Kind of kua zhang cause i have like a few bumps only, but since i only smooth skin, i shall fight any acne early!
Then these are what I bought today at town with Loh and Jeremy. Quite happy with the haul lar. The scarf was bloody cheap lor, 5 fucking bucks only. Online sell so expensive lar, and the material of this scarf is GOOD.

Finally got this pair after months of contemplating. Decided to buy it now when people stop to wear it. This is not a typical pair of gladiators. Am loving it. wee weet.

And bought this at mondo for freaking 9.90. this is like casual slip-ons. haha. go walk to loh loh house can wear this!=)

And that's the end. I shall go zzz. wan an.

Remember my facebook still got pics!

badminton and wii session tomorrow. weets!

boobooboo

2009-01-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

Went to Mediacorp for Campus Superstar.
Nice entertainment, especially by the ahbengs of "unknown weird" secondary school.
Still got fight, then one of the cars in the carpark got dented. WTF.
Lucky cckss more civilised, I thank God for that.

Mavis is out, seriously I am very sad.
but i also don't want Ridhwan to be out.
I thought huishi should just go back and control her emotions lar.
Boo.

Eh, got wildcard round or not ar?

Pictures tomorrow.
WOOHOO.

crap

2009-01-18T22:31:00.003+08:00

I just finished watching The Haunting of Molly Hartley.
Sucks.
That movie sucks like shit.
Horror movie with no horror.
What?!?!

The ending sucked. The story sucked. The plot sucked.
The only good thing was Chace Crawford.
Holy crap.

On a good note, i just received moolahs from my grandpa.
Hell yeah!

Next on the list: Farmhouse and The Unborn.
Wait for reviews on that. Hope they are good. One gore and one horror. Should keep me entertained.

xiaxue's guide to life

2009-01-18T02:37:00.002+08:00

Seriously this is damn funny. HAHA. Entertain my nocturnal habits.

By the way, guy named Kevin added me on MSN. He claimed he got my email from this blog. Well, since you read my blog, I shall be kind. HAHA=) Just don't ask stupid things on MSN. All bad stuff already ranted to Jeremy just now. Hilariously entertaining. Internet life is treating me real damn good.=)

mascara wants!!

2009-01-18T00:33:00.003+08:00

Since I am still in a delusional mood, i shall post about my mascara wants when my imaginary pay arrives. Seriously, I think I am addicted to mascaras just like Zhang Zhiyi is addicted to sunbathing and frolicking with boyfriend on a paparazzi spammed beach. it's that serious ok!!

First of all, MAC Plush Lash. I read super good reviews about this. LOL.

next is Lancome Courbe Virtuose. It has been featured on many magazines. And if you look closely on Anne Hathaway on the newest Seventeen cover, I think she uses this mascara, since she is the ambassador and all. Not that sure though.

Lancome Cils Design. Have lusted over this since the start of Mid Year last year. Saw it a couple of times at various airports. Still lusting over it now. =)

Latest craze of the world. Givenchy Phenomenon. Supposedly a breakthrough in the mascara world, due to weirdly ball shaped wand, but I think it's rather harsh on Asian lashes. More suitable for westerm luscious lashes. But I really want to try this. It costs a bomb by the way. Boohoo.

Diorshow. This is the contender of Givenchy. If I can get both, I will probably not go out for 2 days just to admire both heaven-sent wands.

Clinique High Definition. If you want natural but super WOW lashes, then this one is damn good. Saw the effect on a video online. Was very WOWish. HAHA.

Benefit Bad Gal Lash. This is probably the first one that I am going to buy if I do get my pay. =) I just love Benefit. Cute packaging and super effective stuff. Lucky Sephora is open in Singapore. Or maybe I should go to terminal 3 to buy due to discount from duty-free. Ponder ponder

In all, I just need to get all. Period.

Any kind soul? =)

eye infection.

2009-01-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

All my bloody fault. Bought so many eye stuff, and I have been trying each one, then taking it off using make up remover, and moving on to the next one; thus I have infection now. Bummer. But still, am not going to give up and keep looking for the best mascaras and eyeliners around. Have approximately 12 mascaras now. GAH. Givenchy's looking pretty damn good.Another addition to wishlist.

Went to Lily's dental clinic today due to negligible presence of dentists. Played around with alot of things. I now know how to make dentures, how to make the colourful thingy on braces. etc etc.

Highlight of the day:
I have tried to do an ELLA just now. You know, in Hana Kimi Behind-The-Scenes, they showed the audience how stuffing alot of cotton into your mouth can make you fatter on the cheek area? Well I tried that just now and took before and after pictures. Lazy to upload, shall do that tomorrow. =) I was a fat chio-pig. HAHA.

Anyway, have finally tried the Prosperity Burger. Damn nice, but very messy. Lucky never get the MEGA version. But it was too spicy for me cause I added additional 3 packets of pepper to the burger. Super act clever.

Need to buy the steamboat thingy soon!!!GAH.
And Nigel's replacing Lecky's place for Campus Superstar. That stupid Lecky got work -_-"
Nevermind!! Nigel is as good!! HAHA.
I think we going to have mahjong session before our trip to Mediacorp.
Must lose alot alot, so my A Lvls will get very good result. ARGH.

screwed

2009-01-17T04:49:00.001+08:00

Body clock utterly screwed.
4.50am
and am still wide awake and watching rachel ray show.
boohoo.

ELF

2009-01-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I think the 3 for $10 pricetag is too enticing. I thought I will just buy on impulse and then realise that they are not that good and just put them aside. BUT I WAS BLOODY WRONG!
For starters, the mascara is actually quite good.
And the eyeliner is very simple to use, especially for eyeliners virgin, due to the pen-like tip. But it gets painful for the first application because the tip is still dry, so what you do is to store the eyeliner tip down. Second application will be less torturing.

BUT THE BEST STUFF WAS...
The Hypershine Gloss. Damn good. I bought it in a nude colour and unlike other lipgloss where it makes my already full lips look stung, this one made it look very kissable. =) Love this lipgloss alot. And for such a bargain pricetag!!

If you want to purchase also, go to Ebay, and search for a store called Sidzcollection. Alot of good stuff in there, some cannot even be found in Singapore. Very good find, will buy more lipgloss!!=) 3 for ten bucks!ELF in Singapore is like found only in SASA and Pandora's Box, but the price tag is double of that!!WAHAHAHA.

woohoo

2009-01-16T00:09:00.001+08:00

My ELF Package arrived!
YAY!
The eyeliner's fantastic!=)

Steph's coming to my house tomorrow! DOUBLE YAY!

go figure

2009-01-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

30 minutes jogging at 6am. -_-"
2 hours badminton
40 pushups
100 situps
50 crunches

That's what I did today. I am a certified exercise freak.
Have anybody tried the new Mega Prosperity Burger? I want to try but not willing to part with the moolahs. Shall bring my mom and let her pay. LOL.

Changeling with Stufu tomorrow, can't wait to see her! So long since we've met. Pity Melanie couldn't make it though.

Have to take my masks from Nigel sooner or later, suppy at home's running out. Oh bother.

pay?

2009-01-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

Even before working, I am already imagining good days in the future when I receive my pay and reward myself with something very very nice. First and foremost I will get the Louis Vuitton Neverfull bag, the one below is the Limited Edition one, which I guess is quite difficult to get in Singapore. Not that it will falter my spirit, I will get the plain, simple and gorgeous one, retailing at US$700 online. =)

But as expected, my mom will want me to buy some nice stuff for her also. So I was thinking of either a Guess or Prada wallet. But I think Prada suits her more due to Guess' s more youthful designs. HAHA. Prada ones are classic ones lar, so more suitable for her!=)

Then if I study in any local university then also work part time, I will save up to get this!!=) Super nice. I realise I really like big big big bags. HAHA.

Seems like my stay-at-home-everyday experience has made my imagination run very very wild with all the eyebrow-raising, eye-widening purchases that I have thought about. HAHA. I think I need to get another organiser to plan my expenses when I work. And I will not have an ATM card because I will spend like crazy. I will buy everything in cash.

Can you now imagine me taking out notes and notes of 50 bucks while paying for my LV bag? Walao, super Taitai-In-Training (TIT for short) life lar!!=)

Please I beg all Singaporeans to popi me so that the Singapore government will see value in my existence and thus bless me by making me a permanent residence. With that I can get all the jobs that I want. You all think lar, I can get you nice presents on your birthday you know??!!

HAHA, bribery is indeed more understood in times of despair.

Other stuff on my wishlist that I have written on my organiser:

Maybelline Unstoppable Mascara, still am a big fan.
A scarf
A pair of 4 inch wedges, preferably in black or zebra print
Rayban-imitation sunglasses, makes me look dorky and funny, I LIKE!
Leather biker jacket. Tried in Topshop before, I look damn emo and slim. Very good combination.
Heated eyelash curler
A tattoo. Sounds very ridiculous but I really want to get one under my neck on my back. I have even thought of the image to be imprinted. The number 1940 surrounded by hydrangeas. Because that's the year my grandma was born and hydrangeas are her favourite flowers. =)

I think the most wanted now is the tattoo. But i can wait till after i get everything, cause getting a tattoo is no joke, need alot of deep thinking.

Hmm, thoughts anyone?

**

2009-01-13T10:03:00.002+08:00

Now that the O Level results are done with, we are only with 2 important things:
Chinese New Year, where you get lots of loot.
A Level results, right after CNY, holy cow.

That will be the day in which I decide to happily stay in Singapore to try for Law/Psychology, or I choose to chiong home and cry because I don't like to cry in front of others.
With 2 As in the bag, what I'm hoping for is just another 2As from GP and Economics. I can settle for B and C for P/C/M. OK math cannot get C.
Like that my ranking point still above 78, which is the average of AJC's last year.
Please popi me. ARGH.

Been sleeping rather late these few days due to anxiety. It's becoming insomnia. Just cannot sleep and will think and think and think and think. Then in the morning I will have bombastic headaches.

I think the only relief is the fact that I pray. It relieves and balances me quite abit. Without praying, I think I will be crying everyday just because of worry.

Finally am going out with Steph soon! Friday going to watch Changeling with her!=)
And then 24th will be steamboat at my house with Mela also!
So long since we've met!
Looking forward to that.

Ok shall open my mailbox to see if my cosmetics are here.
haha.

ooh la la

2009-01-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

I super love Bugis.
I spent $110 in total for the two Bugis outing, and I got alot of stuff:

2 tops
1 jacket
2 dresses
2 belts
1 necklace for my sis
1 pair of shoe
3 ELF cosmetics online
1 shoe padding online

This is a miracle!=)

And I think Lily looks good with a vest!=)

I love shopping at Bugis on Mondays!!=)

It's time for a job interview tomorrow at Outram Park. Then out to play again with Loh and Jeremy. Very long time since I went out with them. Hmm. Around one week.haha.

Congratulations to Tunli and Arif for getting 7 distinctions for their O Levels!!

Can I ask anyone if Arif is head prefect??? HAHA. If he is then DAMN ZAI!

gasp

2009-01-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

wasted my time on channel 8.
the little nyonya special sucked like hell.
sure kanna slammed by the press sooner or later.
and ky said it took them 4 hours to film that stupid thing.
-_-"

good skin good mood!

2009-01-11T19:06:00.003+08:00

My mom always give me good stuff!=)
This time it's good skin time!!
Olay Total Effects mask, though for age-defying purposes, but still good for little blemishes. I love the mask. Unlike other masks, you can shape this mask according to your face shape. So cool right? So you won't have air spaces within your mask when you put it on. The smell's fantastic too. =)

SK2 facial treatment essence, mini edition, lol. Can't stant the smell, but supposed to be good, so no problemo for me!

Clinique sunblock SPF40. I should start using sunblock to protect skin liao. When approaching the age of 20, your skin tend to be very weak. MUST TAKE CARE!!=)

YAY! Bugis tomorrow again!

tired

2009-01-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

Went bugis earlier with shang and her sis.
They bought super alot of things!!
Shang, if the skirt i can wear i sure will buy. =) wait until i jian fei le. HAHA.
Bought 2 shirts.

Not enough though, going again with Lily on Monday. And I have more dough, cause i sold my 2nd pair of shoes on ebay! HOORAY!

Gotta sleep.
I realise my eyebag getting worse.
and for people my age, it's time for you to start putting moisturiser on your neck and hand religiously. i start to notice weird lines on my neck. super paranoid now. lucky got the FOC sexygirl moisturiser.
ARGH.
I need sleep.
yawn.
zzzz

fafefifofu

2009-01-10T00:25:00.003+08:00

I am so fucking fat. -_-"

aloha

2009-01-09T19:02:00.002+08:00

#1 The first person who tag in your blog is?
That was 5 years ago, I completely have no idea. Maybe it's Junyi lar hor?

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
Hao Jie Mei!

#3 Your impression of him/her?
Super slacker.

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?
Go out with me when nobody wants to? well if that's considered.

#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
when he asked for notes nearing the final exams.

#6 If he/she become your lover you will
puke.

#7 If he/she become you lover, the thing he/she has to improve will be
his china-ness. i nd angmoh boyfriend lar.

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
tell his mom about his affairs in secondary school and now. He buay tahan his mom the most.

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
argue with me. which happens frequently.

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
go kbox.

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is?
china bong. cannot take it. Don't know why good friends with him. LOL.

#12 How you think people around you feel about you
what a sharp-tongued bitch!

#13 The characters that you love about yourself are
my independence, and a wee bit of my perfectionism.

#14 On the the contrary, what you hate about yourself?
my impatience and my rojakness.

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
good question. I want to be Blake Lively. Nice legs, nice man, nice show.

#16 For people that care and like you, say smth to them?
oi, yue wo chu men le!!

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.

1) Shangshang
2) Lily
3) Loh
4) Jeremy
5) Junyi
6) Lenny
7) Lecky
8) Kengyang
9) Mao
10) Steph

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with? (lenny)
NS

#19 Is no.9 a male or female? (mao)
male.

#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (lecky & steph)
unimaginable.

#21 What is no. 2 studying about? (lily)
dentistry. LOL.

#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? (Loh)
approximately 6 hours ago.

#23 What kind of music band does no. 8 like? (kengyang)
anything that's popular on 987fm now.

#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings? (shang)
younger sister

#25 Will you woo no. 3? (Loh)
wow. what a question. will never woo loh because he too girl for me, and i too man for him.

#26 How abt no. 7? (Lecky)
Nah. younger guys out of the question. HAHA!

#27 Is no. 4 single? (Jeremy)
Yes, but his scandals are aplenty.

#28 Whats the surname of no. 5? (junyi)
yeo

#29 Whats the hobby of no. 10? (Steph)
her ballet, her ballet, her ballet, shopping at atas shops. LOL.

#30 Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? (junyi & mao)
DUH.

#31 Where is no. 2 studying at? (lily)
nowhere. she's a workaholic now. LOL.

#32 Talk something casually about no. 1 (shang)
Super sampat.

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6? (lenny)
eh no also le, but wait until his ns finish lar. LOL.

#34 Where does no. 9 live? (mao)
teck whye

#35 What colour does no. 4 like? (jeremy)
emo colours

#36 Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? (shang and junyi)
probably. haha.

#37 Does no. 1 have any pets? (shang)
alot of fish. HAHA.

#38 Is no. 7 th sexiest person in the world? (Lecky)
Let him tag and decide. LOL.

#39 What is no. 6 doing now? (lenny)
preparing to go dinner with me!

tata. dinner time!

soon

2009-01-09T13:58:00.002+08:00

I think praying to God is useful.
No matter how much a backslider I am, I have gone back to my routine of praying to God every night, and more than immediately it gives my life some balance.
Simple life has been generous with its simple gifts.

I have job interviews, even though I strongly emphasised my nationality.
I have people buying my shoes on Ebay.
I have controlled my urge of spending, giving me more money to splurge for CNY.
I have new dramas online.
I have new forms of entertainment, both Nintendo DS and Wii! Thanks to Loh for Wii.
I have access to Campus Superstar on 19th Jan.

Simple life is slowly treating me well.
And I must thank God for everything that happened, good or bad.
Haleluyah.

I got an organiser just now while out with Loh. I must tidy up my life! and the organiser is inexpensive, mere 5 bucks, and still very nice.
With upcoming job interviews, I can only hope for more, since finding jobs for me is near impossible. Oh goodness.

Lenny's booking out today! YAY! Dinner with him later.
and he want to jia wa wa. -_-" [go arcade, if you don't understand]

Victoria Secrets special

2009-01-08T22:18:00.002+08:00

Since Channel 5 is showing the 2008 fashion show, I should really tell you all some of my favourite VS models of all time.
Of course Tyra Banks is number one in my heart!

Heidi Klum is second. =)

Gisele Bundchen is third!!

With these new ones rounding the list. I used to like Adriana Lima alot, but now she became very big-headed. HAHA. But she is still too damn hot!=) Adriana's the fifth picture by the way.

ARGH I LOVE THIS FASHION SHOW!!=)

These women are not humans at all, but they are still damn hot! Good to see, good to watch, not very good to see as ideal women!!

Anyway, my F21 hoodie came. Ooh LaLa.

Ah nononono. not me.

2009-01-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

Three posts in a day are tad too much I reckoned. They just opened up my full-of-boredom sphere to the whole wide world for exhibition. But I have decided to change the lifestyle that I have now.

I was surprised that a company in Singapore will want to help me do the admin matters of working as a foreigner here. Any clever chick will know that there should be more to the matter and I shall find out this friday when i go for the interview. Waitressing is not that bad, but if they want me to work for half the salary of a singaporean, then adios to the job.
There's also another ice-cream job that seems really interesting, I shall call up tomorrow.

Loh Weijie finally has a Wii. I think he damn lucky lor, where got people win luckydraw then win Wii one -_-"
But one thing's for sure, I will flock his house everyday to play! Provided my interview fails, which in my opinion has a very big probability of happening.

This reminds me of something.
O Level results are coming out soon,
meaning...
A Level results are coming soon after that.
Oh shit.
Oh shit.
Oh shit.
Oh shit.

I should go back to indo to hide from reality.
Don't call me on that fateful day. Either I am not in town, or I have jumped off a cliff.

burger trick

2009-01-07T12:00:00.000+08:00

Bai Quan Nu Wang

2009-01-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

What's Bai Quan Nu Wang in English ar?
Another nice show that just aired in Taiwan. Meaning I will have to wait one week before the next episode appears on Youtube or ykedwin. -_-"

If you like Ethan Ruan, you should watch. If you like the bed scene in FTLY, you should watch because the 2nd episode of this new drama has another bed scene. If you like super sad storyline that will make you cry, you should watch.

This vacation is illuminated again with the existence of 2 new dramas. Makes me realise how boring my life has become.

Tomorrow is another badminton session with loh and jeremy.
After that I may just go home and continue watching Boys Over Flowers since the 2nd episode is aired in Korea today. GAH.

These words describe me now:

Lifeless
Mundane
Robotic
Fatigued (with all the exercise that I have been doing when I am bored.)
Hot-blooded (with all the hot guys seen on dramas)

I am a hot-blooded woman right now. Good Lord.

OH!

2009-01-06T13:24:00.003+08:00

There is a new Korean drama!!

It's channeling Meteor Garden, with F4 and the red note and everything, wondering why it took them so long to to do that. -_-"

But the girl is the one in SHI JIU SHUI DE QING CHUN. =)

And the guys all damn HOT!!=)

GO watch people!!

I am going back to Indo to scour for the dvd. WOOTS.

I need English subtitles, the one online is Chinese, boo. I now read Chinese very slowly. GAH.

Update at 3pm

The show is freaking nice, but it's a pity the 2nd episode not yet aired in korea. damn it. I think ykedwin.blogspot.com is better than mysoju.com. But only for this show lar, cause ykedwin has uploaded the 1st episode with chinese subtitles. GOOD JOB!

Those at home with no job and nothing to do should watch. I think it's better than the taiwan or japanese version!!=) the skirts are damn short. LOL.

OMFG=)

2009-01-05T21:41:00.003+08:00

People, please take a deep breath and calm yourself before you read this entry. I find this terribly funny and this will show the world the weird world of Internet. HAHA.

The story begins with me selling alot of shoes on Ebay, then there is this "lady" who claimed she loved my shoe. Then I replied her saying I don't do postage outside of Singapore. Then this is the reply:

Hi, miss.

thanks for you reply.

i am from Malaysia.
i must tell you the purpose of me to buy your worn shoes, because i respect you.

Actually, i feel shy to tell you that ... i am a Foot and Shoe Fetish guy.

i likes to dominate and humilate by Lady with long Leg and beautiful Feet by treat me as a slave dog ...

sometimes, i imaging i Lay down on the floor like a dog in front of one Lady wearing high heel shoe,

She order me to Eat the food on the floor after being
Step and Crush under her high heel shoe.

And lick clean her dirty shoe Sole and eat whatever
foods stick and remainning on her shoe Sole.

Do you think it's a sick ?

that's why i only interested on your very worn shoes ... hope you will never look down at me & will sell me your very worn shoes, because.... it's just a worn shoes. i promised i will buy a lot of your "very old" shoes the future ...

pls reply.
thanks a lot.

Regards,
slave dog.

Oh my fucking gosh right????
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
This is so hilarous, I love the Internet! Gives me entertainment everyday!!=)=)

-

2009-01-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

Freak.
Campus Superstar 2009 is F-U-C-K-I-N-G GOOD.
LOL.

Much better than any other seasons. Another reason is of course CCKSS has successfully sent a superwoman to compete.
I mean biasedly, I think she is the prettiest liao. LOL.
But very sad, she doesn't have GUAN ZHONG LIAN, so quite sad lar. If she doesn't smile she looks very dao.
But her singing is good!
And the little guy, can't really remember his name, is also super powerful!=)

Anyway, Nigel I put this song up for you le. HAHA.
Like that you forever come my blog liao=)

I was wondering if I should go kickboxing lessons. Hmmm.

I want these!

2009-01-04T01:42:00.002+08:00

OMFG, can anyone tell me where to get these without turning to sprees? I don't like sprees!! Maybe I should go johor and search for cheap imitations. HAHA.
But these are the sex lar. WALAO.

Robot life

2009-01-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

I am on a routine every single day. It's just like a robot life, everything is programmed, and if you don't behave like what you are predestined to, you will feel all weird.

This, people, is the agony of not having a job during a vacation. Even my sister has a life now because school has started for her. Everyday she come home with stories that bewilder her so much in the new secondary school environment. She was really amazed at how the students don't really sing the national anthem every morning. She was really amazed at how not even one person in sight is mouthing the lyrics.

-_-"

Anyway, I have started selling things on Ebay. Just another attempt to make some money. I do have too many pairs of shoes. I am selling one quarter of the total that I have. All i have to do now is wait and wait and wait.

Playing Who Has The Biggest Brain on Facebook is a chore because I am using a laptop with no mouse. I hate to play without a mouse lar, become damn slow. Then I cannot progress. DAMN IT. I shall use the house computer tomorrow, or maybe drop by Loh's house and use his new computer. Using this stupid laptop cannot make me break records!!!!=(
Geo Challenge is the same thing. Using a mouse will be much faster. But I surprised myself with 20 consecutive correct choices for the flag thingys, all anyhow guess. LOL.

Anyone want to go Johor with Lily and I next next Monday? HAHA. We want to splurge! But with a budget.

Being on the computer is so boring........
Cannot sleep also........
Watch TV also nothing one.........
Want to go out, EZ-link card become adult fare liao........
Want to walk, but so freaking far........

Life has become mundane.
Good job.

MIYAZAKI!

2009-01-02T18:28:00.003+08:00

Shoot, i realised I need to watch all Miyazaki animes again.
If you are damn oblivious and still don't know who Miyazaki is, you should just go die. LOL.
He is the master creator of all-time top Japanese animes.
Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke, and the latest Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea!
But all these too recent, you should watch My Neighbour Tontoro, which is like from 1988. LOL. damn nice that one. =)

I want to buy all of Miyazaki's work!!=)

New discovery

2009-01-02T01:23:00.003+08:00

New uploaded photos from chalet and new year gathering. Just realised the existence of Picnik on internet. That software is killing me! I am on it, editting the photos like for four hours!!=) I love that thing!!

Anyway, if you want to see other photos, you got to hop on to my Facebook!! But maybe not today, tomorrow perhaps?

Let's hope there're more of such gatherings. I love my class! WOOTS!

Happy 2009!!

2009-01-01T18:44:00.005+08:00

New year, new blogskin, new personality.
No more dark and black blogskins. It's time to be more cheerful and rainbowish!
Am still not used to the idea, but will get there sooner or later.

Fireworks were nice, but crowded mrts are not nice at all.
Sudden lost of grasp of reality and almost blacked-out amidst the sardine madness.
Lucky to have Nini and Lohloh, if not I would have fainted.
I think the next time I need to be squeezed like sardines, I shall bring an oxygen tank.

Photos up when camera's fully charged.
Wait for that.
And again, if you do read my blog, please tag. It will be nice to see my entries appreciated or not appreciated.

fucking shit

2008-12-31T12:31:00.002+08:00

Ministry of Manpower just called me this morning after I sent out my second consecutive complaint letter to them.

...

I am Indonesian and do not have a diploma.
Hence I am not eligible for any kind of work permit.
If by any chance I do get a job, I will be charged in court and will be kicked out Singapore.
Fucking hell to the system.

Now I am thinking of going back to Indonesia to work.
Bye friends.
But no difference, since I here or not also no difference to many.

Tiring fun+resolutions for 2009

2008-12-30T22:33:00.004+08:00

I extended my chalet stay by staying over at Nigel's house with Seira. She's going back to Malaysia tomorrow, so she doesn't have accomodation, hence Nigel lent his house and I lent my company.

Chalet was fucking fun. And I mean it. For one, everyone was doing things that involved everyone. Mahjong, Blackjack, Monopoly, everyone was involved in one way or another. For two, we have super great class leaders who always seek the opinions of the class before embarking on any activity so as not to leave anyone out. And of course, chalet is fun because I am blessed with the company of very weirdly funky people. HAHA. =) Even a walk to the playground can be fun. My camera is loaded with photographs which I am lazy to upload. Shall do everything in one breath after my countdown at Marina with my class again!!

With all that fun, there's a super big downfall. I am completely broke for this week. My pockets have no cash at all. Really not even uno dollar. =( So I'm stuck at home for the next week. Tomorrow I'm still going because am not going for dinner with them, I will be reaching quite late! =) Maybe i shall borrow money from mom to take taxi back or something.
And job searching is not fun at all when you are a foreigner. I completely give up. There's this super no manners HR personnel from LONSDALE who utterly disgusts me. I have her name, but shall keep that to myself. I patiently waited for her after she told me to call back after her lunch hour. When I called back, she straight away say YOU ARE NOT EMPLOYED when I haven't started saying anything, and then she hung up. That fucking bitch.

Ok, cut the crap.
Here are my resolutions for 2009:

Get a fucking job to buy my Louis Vuitton bag. If ahpo willing to sponsor then get a fucking job for the cash and for hostel money.
Go to Kuala Lumpur with class to visit Seira. Planned for February trip. Hence, if cannot get a fucking job, save up for shopping money since mom paying for transport and accomodation is free of charge.
If i ever end up in Law, work hard and be super good student. If suay and never get into Law, try Business or Accountancy or Architecture and also be good student.
Get an angmoh boyfriend. I am making this resolution due to an inner joke and I have to fulfil my dare. -_-"
Go out with primary school friends to catch up.
Go find Mdm Prema is A Level results are more than satisfactory to celebrate. Find Mdm Prema to cry if results are horrendous.
Go out with Stufu and Melon!
Continue my habit of jogging everyday, try to hit one hour jogging everyday or try to jog 10 km everyday.
The goal of losing weight is super unrealistic. My goal for 2009 is to keep fit only and to maintain current weight and not for it to escalat upwards. If i do lose weight in the process then that's a bonus.=)
Must be more materialistic. Since close friends label me as a person who dare to wear what others usually don't, I shall buy more eyebrow-raising outfits and wear them proudly and I will not fucking care about comments from stupid fashionless people who give bad comments about me just because they can't dress my way. Losers.

Ya, and those are my resolutions.

As if I will keep all of them. Well, the Louis Vuitton part I'm quite determined. The rest depends on my willingness. HAHA. Ever heard of resolutions that are met? very little lar.

Shall wear my boots again for tomorrow's party. WOOHOO! FIREWORKS!!=)=)

Photos tomorrow! or maybe tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow. lol.

sloth

2008-12-27T10:49:00.002+08:00

If you want to see more photographs from Japan, like 70 more photos, go to my facebook to view them. I too lazy to upload them to Multiply then upload to blog. So mafan. LOL.

My facebook link can be found on your left!!=)
Comment on them if you want!
On the mean time, i need to charge my camera. Outing with class today!!

Job hunting

2008-12-26T20:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LECKY!!=)

And happy advanced birthday to Weikee.

Went to Settlers' Cafe at SMU to wish ahkee happy birthday then off to Vivo City we go!! Job hunting is damn tiring. All possible shops i go in liao. Forever 21, Fila, Kappa, Converse, River Island, Pull and Bear, Marks and Spencer, etc etc etc.

I really want the Forever 21 job. =(
Please pray for me.

Anyway, there's a SASA sale at lot one. I bought a Red Earth mascara today for $12.50 or at half price lar. Quite good ar. =)
Gonna go back there to find some more gems.

Tomorrow i shall continue my job hunting at Orchard. Going to check out SASA at Wisma Atria also.=)
YAY. I am looking forward to CHALET!!=)
Must remember to charge my camera!

Happy times.

2008-12-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!!=) Here are the pictures from past outings!!

First of all is from the Christmas gathering at LohLoh's house!! The feast was damn nice. I think Leonard and Lily are good cooks, and i'm a good kitchen assistant!!=)

------Then there was the photographs from the roller coaster day that i mentioned. HAHA. I love my class!!=) And i think Bishan library is damn fab. SO MANY BOOKS! and a very hip library with all the unique designs.

---These are photographs taken from the rather awkward gathering that i mentioned. HAHA. But it was a good catching-up time with old friends. =)

So everyone!! Best wishes for everything. In one more week, it will be NEW YEAR!! I hope everyone have a memorable 2008 and have a fulfilling 2009!!=)

By the way, I really hope the 2 of my close friends in JC can reconcile quickly and don't make matters so stifling for the rest of us to observe. I mean, i just wish they will forget all their grudges and just be friends again.

No matter how badly a friend has done, a friend is still better than an enemy. And i don't want to be stuck in the middle anymore also. So even if you all see no motivation to get back, maybe do it for me?

2008-12-24T15:06:00.001+08:00

ok off to loh loh's house.
don't really what we gonna do.
but who cares.
a few close friends are definitely much better than one whole gang of ok friends.
i love them!!=)

2008-12-24T14:46:00.001+08:00

Anyway i forgot to say this yesterday,

while walking through CityLink, Nini and I saw...

LIM TENG JIN!!!! WOW!!!=)=)=) But he very dao le. LOL. Should have approached and asked for a group photo or something. HAHA=)

-_-"bullshit

2008-12-24T00:17:00.003+08:00

Rollercoaster day.
Phew.

It started with a hopeful walk to John Little at Marina Square with Nini. In the end, the Customer Service Officer said that there was no more job vacancy when we were like 10 minutes past the interview time. -_-" So both of us ended up shopping at Marina Square and Raffles Place Shopping Centre. Quite a good haul. =) Got a FOX sweater at a discounted price, then a Topman shirt at 2 for $19, of which Nini took the other one.
I think i shocked the cashier at FOX cause i gave her $13 worth of coins. HAHA. All because i opened my piggy bank today and had alot of gold coins. HAHA.

We went to Junction 8 to do some class thingy lar. I just hope that Nini and Lohloh continue, at least, being friends. =(
Anyway, got a Cotton On shorts there at 75% off. LOL.

And for some unknown reason, lohloh treated me to a late-night movie. LOL. Jeremy came down also, and treated me a drink. WOW. I spent like 2 bucks on my potato chips. and that's all. =)

And as i said, it was a rollercoaster day. WOWIE. bah.

Xmas party tomorrow, and is going to be weird cause we got nothing planned out. boo. watch soccer lor.....-_-"

trying to post everyday

2008-12-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Since lecky said it would be nice to see bloggers updating everyday, which translates to hinting me to do so, i shall TRY to do so. Depends on daily moodswings, daily splurges and daily boredom.

Just came back from a highly awkward outing with lots of people. Awkward because it has been a long time since i last saw some of them, and therefore conversations are always short and abrupt. But, lucky still have some siao ones ar. LOL. Not that bad to have gatherings like this, though awkward still can catch up with friends! Maybe shall do that again next time!

I am damn pissed off with all money changers in the whole singapore. COINS NOT MONEY MEH??? JAPANESE COINS SOME MORE!!! 1000 yen is equivalent to $16. So 3000 yen is naturally $48 right? Damn the stupid money changer, just because my 3000 yen is made up of 1 note and 4 coins, i got $35 only lar. Chicken mcspicy. Waste my time and effort and money!!=(
And then the stupid mnoney changer still dare to say, "sorry ar, coins less value!" wa nenepok le, my coins not 10 yen like that one le, is 4 500 yen coin you know or not!!! GRRRRR. Bluff my money. i don't like the money changer lar.

Finally tomorrow going for walk-in job interview. Hope everything goes well!!=)

how to curl asian lashes

2008-12-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

This tutorial is kind of the best that i can find in youtube, cause the rest focus too much on other things and not on ASIAN lashes. I think to buy an electrical eyelash curler. LOL.

Japan Trip Part ONE

2008-12-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

Here's the photos from Japan!! Mostly of Universal Studio in Osaka and the temple which has WOAH scenery but of which i forgot the name. Others are weirdo miscellaneous photos lar. =) People say if you go to Japan, you don't need to bring your pyjamas because every hotel will provide the yukatas!!=) And the bullet train was cool.

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The rest will be posted some other day!!=) These are taken on the first and second day only!! Stay tuned!!

shoot. determined. shoot.

2008-12-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

I am having problems uploading Japan Trip photos onto multiply. Somehow the auto-uploader loves to upload till around 70% then it will turn idle. -_-" Well i am trying not to care. Let's jusy wait for it to finish uploading.

Just came back from chalet this morning. Though i rested on the bed, i did not manage to fall asleep at all. Went home and had a splitting headache. The chalet was ok lar, because some correct people were there, so even if there were "wrong" people, all of them will be eliminated. LOL. Say until very bad. But seriously, if people sleeping ar, can don't scream at the top of your lungs or not ar? Want to shout can, no problemo. But please do not scream like you kanna raped, or someone cut off your penis can? Damn irritated le. I don't mind shouting, but yesterday night was too much already lar.
But the BBQ was good. haha. Pengyeow is a very good cooker, should try selling himself in John Little or BHG, aunties will bring him home!

There's a Converse Warehouse Sale at Serangoon!! 19th to 25th December. Maybe going one day with lily and one day with 25/07 girls. woohoo!

And jobs, please flock me. I need jobs for next year. bai tuo bai tuo.

oops

2008-12-11T19:56:00.000+08:00

i don't really know how to use multiplier.

to see the photos, just scroll to the right lar.

got alot.

LOL.

in 3 more days time, i will post japan trip photos. estimated around 200 photos.

good night!!

comment hor! my tagboard dying liao lar.

AJC PROM 2008

2008-12-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

AJC Prom King and Queen!!=)

2008-12-11T01:05:00.003+08:00

First picture is of AJC's Prom King, Ming Da. Picture courtesy of Mingda's Facebook account.

Second picture is of Jocelyn (Prom Queen) and Sherry, courtesy of Sherry's FAcebook account. It's obvious Jocelyn is the one with the crown.

All i can say is good choice AJC. At least we never choose super horrible ones that will make the school look damn bad. =)

long long due pictures.

2008-12-02T13:11:00.004+08:00

Yup these photos are long overdue.
First few photos were from our outing to hunt for prom stuff.
The photo with me in purple dress was taken in topshop. I love the jacket alot, but it was like 173 bucks. damn it.
So i have decided on the prom outfit, the one with leopard skin jacket. Take note that the theme is Hollywood Glamour. HAHAHA. I love my shoes. ARGH!!

Anyway, i spent over 400 bucks this week. HAHA.
Bought 3 pairs of shoes, the dress, the jacket, two tights from topshop, loads of accessories, watches, etc etc etc etc. HAHA.
And i'm flying to japan on thursday.
SAYONARA!

tired

2008-11-30T01:23:00.002+08:00

all this video watching is finally harming my hormones.
Crying for no reason now makes me super emotional. Even hearing the song will make me tear up. I think of it also will cry.
I am once again addicted to watching drama serials. The last time was i think 3 years ago before O Level year. The cycle was similar as now. Wake up, bathe, watch, bathe, sleep. I don't even eat. I just drink 5 500ml bottle worth of water everyday and i will be fine.
And that makes me super easily tired. and my back is aching from all that watching. I think i need a massage chair, should go leonard's house soon. HAHA.

Anyway, this is good news for some of you: I have stopped watching Fated to Love You. Although some people are damn irritated liao, i don't see the where all the frustration come from. Holidays mar, addicted abit also nevermind mar. But don't really care liao, because i have found another person who is as mad as me. NIGEL LIM WEN BIN IS THE BEST!!=) Walao, we talk about anything also can link to the show. After my Japan trip, am going to his house to marathon that show again. wahahaha. He say he never cry, i see on that day he will cry or not!! haha.

But now, i am watching They Kissed Again again.haha. So nice. Lin Yi Chen deserves her best actress award. haha.
ok. better sleep. tomorrow can see jeremy!! wa miss him alot!! my present!!=)

cried like hell because of this.

2008-11-28T01:40:00.002+08:00

I cried for days because of this.
I think this is the best scene in the show, well other than the bed scene.
Anyway, JI NIAN PIN is the name of their unborn child.
I watched twice liao, i still cried like mad.
Oh my god.

WOO

2008-11-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching MING ZHONG ZHU DING WO AI NI!!!
ARGH!
I love that show to the max!! HAHA.
I am going to post this youtube video of a very JING DIAN scene in the show.
Handsome guy with hot bod. Pretty girl with hot bod. Put together, you get one very nice bed scene!!!WAHAHAHA.
I think Ethan Ruan is the mosy handsome actor liao. I love CHEN QIAO EN also!! I think she is Taiwan's NUMBER ONE drama actress!!=)
Enjoy people.
Don't nose-bleed.
However i do believe all the trains and rockets in the video very distracting le. HAHA.

hilarious.

2008-11-24T22:11:00.002+08:00

I am forever stuck at home.
But that's not a bad thing.
Almost finished watching "my destiny", and i cried once in every 2 episodes. Much improvement made. haha.
I'm gonna shop for dinner and dance tomorrow. Hope i get some good stuff. It's either what RuiEn wore for 2007 Star Awards or punk rock dress with blazer. WOOTS.
And yes, it's never enough with super high killer heels!=)
Pictures tomorrow!

fuck this individual

2008-11-23T11:54:00.002+08:00

http://www.xanga.com/xXi_cry_crimson_tearsXx?nextdate=5%2f11%2f2008+10%3a50%3a18.143&direction=p

ya, visit this stupid blog.
i am damn angry.
This is all for attention lor. It's very heart-wrenching to see such stuff. I think she/he does not need help. This individual should just end his/her life. I know my opinion is too extreme but what he/she is doing is not only harming self but also harming others. Should not deny others the chance to live in peace. Stupid bugger.
I do not like people who do not treasure their lives. If you have a problem, you can go see a psychiatrist. If you want to cut yourself, cut in private. Don't need to tell the whole world. Stupid idiot.

2008-11-22T19:55:00.001+08:00

Fuck it's starting again.
DAMN IT! I HATE MYSELF.
STOP THINKING FITRINA YUVITASARI!
ARGH.

drag it.

2008-11-22T19:03:00.002+08:00

Now that the A's are over, i'm getting cuckoo.
Steph when are you free???
Mela when are you free???

Just a few days ago, weijie, jeremy and i were at westmall talking over dinner at pastamania. Guess it was like dejavu.
Two years back, it was the exact same period, and we were talking and loathing the same person. The only difference is the venue. I hope two years on that wouldn't happen again cause that would mean that i will still be emotionally or in any way attached to the individual that we bitched about. haha. Hope jeremy and family have a good trip to Gold Coast, That bugger will really get it from me if he didn't buy me anything!!

And another thing is that i'm now completely obsessed with another individual, who in my opinion should not be the case because the situation is way too familiar. It's getting creepy actually. Nevertheless, i can't get the matter out of my mind. i am so bloody screwed.

On a lighter note, i've been shopping for prom these few days. And it's more difficult for me to find what i want, because i want to go as a really handsome man. With my utter chio-ness haircut, i actually think i can pass off as a man. WHOOSH! Maybe if steph and mela are free they can help me with this challenge. Mind you, i will be damn yandao can! Jeremy said he will be damn devastated if i went as a guy and i have girls asking me out. HAHAHA.

Photos next time!

=)

2008-11-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

MY HAIR IS FUCKING CHIO!

oohlala

2008-11-15T22:15:00.003+08:00

Just watched saw 5.
Amamzing movie. Can't wait Saw 6 to come out. It's so bloody good.
By bloody i mean really BLOODY good.
Can't believe that this prequel tied everything from past prequels!! So if you want to watch this, you better watch the first four, if not you will be lost!!
The director is either a immensely genius pervert or superbly unfeeling moron. No matter what, i love this show! Brings out the bad side of homosapiens, especially in times of survival and competition. Learnt alot from this series lar. haha.

By the way, i went to stomp today and was utterly disgusted with what students of stellar jcs are doing. I mean i'm not saying all of them lar, i'm saying those group of students lar. Really brought shame to the school. Since it's up on stomp, no point in not saying the school's name.

SAJC-mango session during rugby practice just to be "nice" to birthday boy. How can you even think smearing toothpaste on his genitals???? You think semen is minty is it?? What the fuck. I see liao i sian; i mean you want to mango the poor furler then do so and stop lar. WHY GO PUT TOOTHPASTE ON HIS PENIS?? retarded group of people.

ACJC-this one more jialat. Also on the topic of birthday bashing. This girl was supposed to have a wonderful birthday celebration. Well, never did she expect that her birthday celebration will be her tied to the pull-up thingys and be thrown at with cakes and don't-what-else. Well, that was not the focal point. The point is that when the girl started to cry and ask for the embarrassment to stop, her dear friends should stop what!!! What did they do?? They find it super amusing, and continued. Even the teacher came to stop them not for tying the girl up, but for littering the area. Priorities, people. Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Ok, this may create an uproar over people who have no common sense and no conscience. But please lar, birthdays are supposed to be fun. and by fun i mean healthy and not terrorising fun. What difference are they from terrorists??? IF you scrutinise the definition of a "terrorist", it comprises of almost everyone who terrorise people and not just people with beards and heavy moustaches!!!

JC students are supposed to be mature young-adults who knows limits. Have fun, have all the fun that you want, but don't push the boundaries.
ARGH. I AM FUCKING PISSED!!
These do not only embarrass the school. But also the entire Junior College population in Singapore. Now the seemingly knowledgeable adults will have more evidence to label us as humans in the "rebellious stage". Stupid people with brains. What the fuck is your brain used for???

Stufu, don't scold me ar, i'm just scolding those few siao ginas in sajc. LOL.

How i wish jigsaw was here to punish these weirdoes. GAH.

On a brighter note, A Levels is ending in like hours!!! ok 3 days to be exact. haha.
Can't wait for hair-dye, haircut, manicure, hair-straightening, ear-piercing, tattooing sessions to start!!! HOORAY!!=)
Realised my blog got no more photos, so sian hor. Shall snap like crazy after a's. HAHAHA

2008-11-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

seriously, time's passing really quickly.
am now a fervent member of neopets again. HAHA.
can't wait for haircut and hairdye on tues. 18th nov please hurry and come!!!=)

Should i go back to cckss on tues? hmmm. cca leader but i don't want to be tied down with alumni stuff le. HOW HOW HOW HOW

lalalalalalalalala

2008-11-12T23:54:00.001+08:00

Am so crappy.
How to find jobs with no identification of myself being somewhat singaporean?
crap lar.

...

2008-11-10T18:28:00.001+08:00

One word:

Crap.

Depression superceding the normal mind

2008-10-31T19:46:00.002+08:00

It's another emotional post regarding what-else studies.
Honestly, i think i pressure myself too much. I constantly think that i do not maximise my capabilities enough, and that's where i trap my own internal ego. Based on my own reflections, i have done enough currently and i should not be worried.
However reality sometimes is not as assuring as your own soothing halo. You can live bluffing yourself or you can live stressing yourself. I definitely prefer the latter. What i don't understand is why i let fear take over my mentality.

I need to do what i have to do and excel. I don't only do well for myself but for my entire maternal side of the family. It's time ugly Singaporeans realise that Indonesia can produce talent too, and not only talented maids. And i really mean UGLY Singaporeans who think they rule Asia and noone else should be there to snatch their self-proclaimed positions away.

That is one heck of a motivation, and i shall mug.

dum-dum-de-dum-dum-dum-de-dum-dum

2008-10-27T18:04:00.002+08:00

My sister is a dumb ass.
When all of you are enjoying your studying time all to yourselves and without any possible distractions, i have to do two huge things at the same time.
1. Study for A Levels.
2. Teach bro for his end of year examination.

And mind you, teaching a primary 1 kid is not easy, you don't know if what you teach is excessive of what he has to know.

And that freak isabel lim huien is enjoying her post-psle days EVERYDAY. And so she left all the teaching to me, when she has got no more major exams in the mean time.
Damn it.

I shall think of it as accumulating good karma.

And yes, econs makes more sense than physics.
Totally.

utter weirdoes

2008-10-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

Just read a forum on sgclub.
It's kind of eeky but intriguing too.
ahaha.
apparently there's a couple who will make out like they're alone in a bus stop at boon lay.
Quoted from the thread: "the girl will pant, and the guy will hump her."
WTF..
and the guy's from juying sec.
WOWOWOWOWOWOW

i want to go see!!!=)
This is so hilarious.

Serious cash problems

2008-10-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

Now i'm worried about three things:

My A Levels are in two weeks time, and i just cannot feel ready at all. This is very weird. I have nightmares everyday! HELP!
I have a serious financial problem. With Dinner and Dance coming, and of course that trip to Tokyo, i need a miracle amount of money to buy winter clothing and a rocking outfit for D&D. I so feel like robbing a bank now.
I think i cannot lose anymore weight. I run 5km EVERYDAY. I eat less and less due to immense stress form studying. BUT THE READING ON THE SCALE IS FUCKING STAGNANT. The only thing that is very obvious is the chicken drumstick that has morphed out of my calves. WTF.

First problem will be solved in 29 more days.

Second problem will be solved if popo comes to Singapore.

Third problem will never be solved.

I'm destined to be a fat chick.

Dammit.

Womanizer

2008-10-19T19:27:00.002+08:00

The miracle that happened in the US!
Jumped 95 spots to clinch the no. 1 spot!
I LOVE BRITNEY SPEARS!

She got her hot bod back, yum. haha=)

rarrrr

2008-10-18T00:59:00.001+08:00

Highlight of the day: JAY CHOU'S NEW CD!! Not fantastic, but so-so lar.

Lowlight: Am fucking screwed. I dream of myself failing the a's everyday. dammit.

the coffin

2008-10-10T21:22:00.001+08:00

Never crossed my mind.

2008-10-10T00:32:00.002+08:00

Been busy with class video and presents for teachers.
Kinda sad because tomorrow's farewell assembly and that means two things:
1. I'm leaving AJC.
2. The A's are looming in.

Holy crap.

AJC is a school that i intended to hate, forced to abhor, and grew to love. It's a bit weird considering the fact that i really wanted to skip school everyday last year. But with the help of a very united class and a set of very caring teachers, hate blossomed into fonder. Maybe the unhappiness was just a placebo to my agony of leaving secondary school.

Now it's kinda sad.

Nevertheless, I will still meet up with fellow friends!! Coincidentally with 2/5, my current pdg now intends to meet up on every 25th of july to just have some fun together lar. HAHA=)

I definitely will miss all my friends in AJC=)
Love them all so much!! =)

My class video is done by the way, quite ok lar. Not that bad. HAHA.
Good luck with future endeavours everyone!!=)

ooh, that's interesting.

2008-10-07T08:12:00.001+08:00

You are Justice

Equity, rightness, probity, executive; triumph of the observing side in law.

Justice is about cold, objective balance through reason or natural force. You can't keep smoking and drinking without consequences to your health. It is the card that advises cutting out waste and insists that you make adjustments, do whatever is necessary to bring things back into balance, physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually. It is a card of balance and harmony; if there is imbalance, the correction may
require recourse to the law.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

the hard truth.

2008-09-28T10:16:00.002+08:00

You, Fitrina Yuvitasari, are bloody screwed in every aspects of life. You should be ashamed of yourself and reflection no longger works on a thrash like you. You should just question your existence in this world and wonder if such an existence is bringing fortune or great calamity. More likey the latter i suppose.

Toodles, am in a grouchy mood.

fallacy?

2008-09-24T10:45:00.002+08:00

I am falling deeper, and i have no one to blame but myself.
Saying things like i only enjoy the moment is now complete bullshit. It's all my fault, i shouldn't open up that much, i should just stay reserved and all, but obviously i can't and yup, things are now super complicated that i don't know where to begin when i start talking about it.

Results for prelims have been soso, because i expected myself to fail anyway. Never fail badly already a miracle so don't hope for too much. HAHA. But lucky for me, i got a B for my GP so i can at least get more ranking points than midyear lar. haha. 55 more days to decide whether i should continue on my foolish behaviours or not, well i hope i don't have to decide as it's kind of difficult to ascertain things.

Let's hope fot the better then.
I'm hoping that shang shang faster recover from her illness.=)

Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince

2008-09-19T20:12:00.003+08:00

Boring boring day.

2008-09-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

Got back my mathematics paper today. Congratulations to myself that i did better than average although stil fail. HAHA. But by doing better than expected i already surpassed my own target, and so i am elated. =) Congrats for weijie for getting such high marks. GOOD JOB!=)

School was a bore lar, go school to play only, should have just skipped another day, my form teacher didn't even ask for parents' letter lar. LOL. After school some of us played badminton while some went swimming. Though i would very much like to go swimming, but can you believe that i got no swimming suit, haha. =) I always borrow my mom's swimming suit. I'm such a cheapo. lol.

Badminton was ok lar, but we realised that ChuanDe is very violent and loves to smack people with his super smash hit. Kind of irritating at times cause that's all that he does. Smash and smash some more. -_-" But nevermind, it was a good experience and a good showcase of my above average skills. =)

After badminton went to Jeremy's house to play, but i ended up sleeping although his aircon was shit and it was freaking hot. and he just told me that his aircon really spoilt and just created a light shower in his room. LOL.

Anyway, weijie told me this joke that he saw on the new urban male shirt.
What's one quarter fish and three quarter duck?
The answer is FUCK. LOL.
I damn slow, only got it after eons. HAHA.

LOH WEIJIE!
I still think it's highly unlikely. Though what you said made me quite happy lar, but i still think it's kind of impossible. haha. So i think i just enjoy the moment first lar, anything else after the a's then say. NOW IS STUDIES!! WHOOSH!!
=)

Damn emo these few days.
Don;t know why also. Damn scared that my GP marks will be horrible. HAIS.=(

That's my bro's five dollar coin. He wants me to tell the whole world. LOL

Post-prelims depression.

2008-09-18T11:25:00.002+08:00

Though I failed my Chemistry Paper 3, it was relatively well done since i didn't do much practice and i studied half-heartedly. So it was a miraculous affair lar. HAHA.=)
Quite satisfied with myself and my very smart brain. lol.

Next on the agenda is quite mindboggling. I think Huimin got the call too. Raffles Design Institute called me and said that i can start enrolling for January 2009 batch now. The conversation went something like this:

Me: Halo?
Dunno Hu: Halo, we are calling from Raffles Design Institute. Are you Ms Fitrina -mumble mumble mumble- taking A Levels this year?
Me: Erm..ya
Dunno Hu: We are pleased to tell you that you can start enrolling for the next batch of students. Are you planning on doing anything after the A Levels?
Me: Erm..no?
Dunno Hu: Well, then we are pleased to - mumble mumble mumble - You are not required to bring a portfolio. -mumble mumble mumble-
Me: Erm, ok, sorry but i need to go, so thanks for the information and bye!!

And i put down the phone. Mainly because i couldn't tolerate her mumbling.
Good incentive and back up plan to put in my list, but i'm not giving up on NUS law. whoosh.

Anyway, i bought the newest SEVENTEEN and there was this article inside that said, "Are you really over your ex?".
Better to say what i think that to bottle it up. haha.
First, I am not over my ex though i'm trying very hard to by eating wild flowers. But the problem with that is you get this feeling that you are finding a substitute, whish is kind of evil of me.
Second, the article said " the longer the relationship lasted, the longer it will take to get over it." So i have a reason for not being able to get over it now. 3 and a half years of liking someone is not easy to be replaced lar.

That's all i want to say, but the above paragraph does not mean that i want to go back to my previous relationship. It's just a small confession that i wish to make. Nevertheless, it's better to move on. =)
And maybe i have found someone to move on with. =)

metaphorically speaking...

2008-09-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

I am so going to skip school tomorrow. I find AJC kind of brutal because the management does not intend to give us any break after the preliminaries. So i have decided to take the matter in my own hands and with the permission of my beloved mom, i am skipping school tomorrow. Obviously it's not playing truant or anything since mom agrees on letting me rest, but in all, it's a good recuperating way.

How do i even start describing the examinations...
Some papers were dreadful, but some were unexpected. Physics was a good example because though i have no idea whether my answer is correct or not, i actually managed to answer everything. So, that alone is quite an achievement. But seriously, chemistry was horrible because i didn't study group 2 and 7, and everything came out from that sole chapter. Damn it.

I have decided to list to list the things that i want to do after A levels, which is like 63 days away, hehe.

1. Pierce my ears again.
2. Dye my hair, the more havoc the better. Since i have short hair now, i can go for a more edgy look. A differet coloured fringe perhaps, or maybe some streaks of blue/purple?? HAHA.
3. Manicure
4. Go shopping for D&D. Must remind self to buy things that i will wear again in times to come, and remember i'm going as a handsome lady. AHAHA.
5. Find a job.
6. Go tokyo with popo and other family members. =)
7. Go get a tattoo, well this one is tentative. Depends on how emo i am after the a levels. LOL.
8. Jog for an hour daily. Now i'm averaging 20-30 minutes daily cause i can't squueze the time. After a levels i'll be a fitness freak!=)
9. Go eat good food!!!!!!=)
10. Go Genting with fellow friends. =)

Is that not exciting enough??!?!!
I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE END!!!!=)=)

By the way, on another note of randomness, should i continue to eat flowers? I don't think it's worth my time. HAHA. Being single is too carefree!!!=)

oh well

2008-09-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

I cried in school, for academics.
I'm such a klutz.
But who cares.

HAHA.
Project Runway Season 5 totally rocks!!=)
Channel 5 is so snail-slow!!!
Am going to watch youtube till tomorrow morning.
Anyway, i finally played viwawa again.
It was fun when the whole room was filled with people you know, haha=)
Shall play again next wednesday=)

Lalalala.

2008-09-05T19:41:00.002+08:00

My handphone's getting all old and cranky.
It's damaged again for the 4th time in 2 days.
Shoot.

And studying was okay lar, just that i don't have the attention span. HAHA.
=)

Let's hope miracles happen.
HAHA.
Nothing much to blog about, brain's full of complex numbers.

hahaha. study till very demented.

2008-09-03T16:24:00.003+08:00

As expected, studying was not very productive in my own house because first, the pressure is not on yet, and second, distraction is aplenty. HAHA.
Today i am very impressed with my culinary skills=) I stormed up a fish and meatball in mushroom gravy combo and here's the masterpiece. Though don't look very nice, but it yummy-oo!!=)

Lily wants me to put up a prettier picture of her, and since i couldn't find the olne with her wearing sunnies, i took this one!!!=) the baby pooh is lenny's by the way, it was way cuter than lenny lar. HAHA=)

And yeah people, the reality is hard and cold. 60 freaking days is very horrifying, but of course i want it to arrive faster lar, cause that means that the torture will be over lar. haha. by the way the following pictures are all of me trying to study hard in the middle of the night, but after a while i put on a jacket and i concussed. LOL.

Well, it was fun trying. =)

=(

2008-09-02T02:24:00.002+08:00

damn sad now.
study the whole day liao still can't get it.
i think i can go die liao.
fuck the whole world.
KNNBCCB. i rilly damn pissed off with myself.
How come my brain become such rubbish-standard.
i should just make myself disappear from this world.
fuck my brain.

holidays=pictures =)

2008-09-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

My laptop. =)

I think this pair rocks lar, but too bad i find no use even if i buy. No such occasion lar.

My Thirteen Devils if i have won, i left the nine circles lar. -_-"

and this was the pair that i have been lusting after since the latest issue of CLEO came out. It was $39.90.

And this is the exact same pair that i bought today at bp plaza for $24.90. HAHAHA. $15 cheaper!!!=)

AGNES MONICA!!

2008-09-01T10:40:00.002+08:00

Ok so let's talk in indo for this video.
Gue mau album ini banget!!
Siapa yang mau beliin.
pls beliin dong, vocals agnes mantap abis.

HAHA. =)

AGNES MONICA~

2008-09-01T10:40:00.000+08:00

The Ting-Tings

2008-09-01T10:31:00.003+08:00

Classic song to lipsync to!!!
=)
Shut up and let me go is another good song

Jeremy buy for me this album and PCD's Doll Domination!!!=)

oh shoot. =(

2008-09-01T10:19:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought things will get better, i have landed on planet fever.
WTFKNNBCCB.
I want to study lar.
WHY SICK!

On a positive note, i won $6 yesterday during mahjong, and almost got thirteen devils, with 12 tiles very nicely done.
Shoot.
Left 9 circles lar!!! ARGHHHH ! then i will TING SHI SAN BIAN!!!!=(=(=(

Lily and shang coming soon.
Mug hard fwee!!

A time-bomb again.

2008-08-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

I'm sincerely super pissed, and the root of that ire is better not said. However the after-effect of such a disgusting incident is worth mentioning. I don't understand all this commotion lar. [and no shangying, this is not about you.][it's some other fucker whom we all have known for a very long time.]

I mean if friends start to offer their advice or opinions on something, you should at least take everything in and ponder over whether what he/she said made sense. If it's someone like a stranger or an acquiantance or a rival, then of course you can either brush it away or rant on your blog. But this person may consider him/herself as your friend and thus he/she may want to take a stand on the incident and just ensure that he/she is there for you, making sure reality is constantly succinct.
Instead, you make it as if like the friend purposely want to make this opinion just to bring you down and just to backstab you. Please lar, where the hell is your brain. Even if you are the leader of the pack or the president of the country, you also must listen to your own friends and not delude yourself even further by thinking that your opinion is the one that people must listen.
I have known you for a long long time, and i'm rather disappointed in the way you act lar, especially in this age. When you get older you are supposed to mature not only physically but also mentally. What you are doing is a portrait of kiddish behaviour. I respect you in the past because i think you are one person that can handle all sorts of challenges and difficulties, but now that respect has completely been thrown out the window and disgust has been thrown back.

If you know that i'm talking about you, please reflect. Don't blog on your website off-the-cuff just because you are fucking pissed. That will only show how well you retaliate and not how well you handle the situation.

God, i wonder sometimes why i have to tolerate such people. I cannot ignore what is happening around me lar, especially if it's friends. GAH. Who ask me to be a busybody =(
Fuck lar, i damn pissed for don't know what reason. Fucking shit.

Oh, and shangying, i realise hor that no matter how pessimistic you are, you still can appear optimistic and cheerful infront of others. So i thinkthat you should embrace your outer ego and not dwell on your inner devil. Should really stop blaming yourself for everything. True that sometimes things happen with you being the focal point, but that does not mean anything what. Stop letting your pessimism eat you up. True friends like lily and me and ruiping and steph and mela and meiyu and etc don't want to see you change because of stupid things. Jiayou!
and although i don't really talk to you much, i just want you to know that separation of schools does not mean that i treat you less as a friend. =)